Monday, August 25, 2014

"If home is where the heart is, then we're both just fucked."

So I was looking at old pictures, and stumbled upon these...






Still remember those days? Haha. I decided to check the event blog just in case they made a part II of this after I moved here. I told you how it went back then. Chill.. I'm not about to get all nostalgic right now, but after I visited the blog, I thought the post last time was kinda self-centered hahah and today I realized many new things about this event. I started to appreciate it more and more even after all this years. In-fest 2011 was a very humble event and probably there are still rooms for improvement in terms of event management but I walked out of it with a lasting impression on how a music and art festival feels like. It was on a small scale but come to think of it, it was a great concept. I still remember clearly what it felt like being there. I'm still a festival rookie, I haven't been to lots of 'em so I might not know what the actual good festival should be like but In-fest left a footprint in my heart. I've learned a lot from it. It gets deeper this time.

It was a place to show what you've got without looking for a trophy or title. It was very honest.  "But then isn't that how everything normally goes? Just like a normal gig when you play your original stuff?" --you said. Well this is different.

There was 1 major difference: The purpose. Not the event's, but the crowd's and the performers'.

"Geez, of course those 2 would be different from one event to another."--you said.

Ok then lemme break it down to ya.
Whether it is Rock In Japan, Glastonbury Festival, Coachella, Big Day Out, etcetc, no matter what genre, theY went there to SEE THEIR FAVE MUSICIANS and expect to hear songs that they know and like. and if they stumble upon one awesome opening act or supporting performers or maybe some good new musicians, great. that's a plus. Nobody went to festivals not knowing any of the performer. You paid hundreds of dollars to see musicians you don't know? I don't think so. Except for parents who came to accompany their kids. And boyfriends to protect their girlfriends. Also some people went to support their musician friends who will be performing that day. the crowd weren't the kind that came solely to see what kind of stuff you're gonna bring to the table. They weren't the kind who purposely went there ONLY to listen to stuff from people they've never heard of before. They listened to the performers before, liked it, and then decided to see them live because they liked them first.




In-Fest was filled with respectful audiences. They were there because they actually went to see and listen to what every performer had despite of their personal preferences. Musicians came out as who they are--as a total stranger to the crowd--. no prior fandom whatsoever. The performers were all indie and barely known anyway. 

As musician,When we perform on a normal gig, we worked hard to please the crowd and those who invited us to play with what we had. We worked hard to entertain. We worked hard so that they wouldn't be throwing us tomatoes or rotten eggs or "BOOOOO"s. We expected people to engage with us, to receive our message, to relate with our songs, and so on. we worked hard for them to like us. The pressure is everywhere and subconsciously we tried our best to fulfill their expectations.

At In-Fest, in essence, musicians  only have one purpose: To be heard. This is our song. That's it. No frills. Take it or leave it. This is where applause, compliments, and acceptance are mere bonuses. I was having the usual pressure.. "will they like it? I HAVE to play well. There were so many talented people here...etc etc" but then when I saw the other band who played before us, those thoughts vanished. I saw the crowd's faces. I saw them taking it in. They were there to listen. To pay attention at each of our form of art so willingly. I mean, there were different genres and some of them were on the extreme end but they accepted it all. They listened to every performers regardless of genre. It was truly a platform to express ourselves as musician. It was a place to be heard. At that time, anything else didn't matter.

So I thought: we need more events like this. We need a platform to be heard. The atmosphere was very welcoming and very encouraging to us emerging musicians. It encouraged me to learn more, to make music more because that's who I am. I just had to get it out of my head.

In-fest was "Freedom of expression" at its best. FREE ADMISSION BRAH!! There was art & jewellry gallery, movie screening room, music stage, and communal painting wall.
 
The communal painting wall was behind us.
There were A LOT of musicians each day. At first people were gathering and socializing in the gallery and some at the backyard where the music stage was at. It was grassy so people sat on the ground chillin while having some Nasi Lemak and Lemonade. And then the music started. Some people went upstairs to see indie films and then came down to see music performances. As the night went, it got awesomer. We were moshing and headbanging to "Fetus" and "Xerpent", and then we had "Like Silver" who turned the grassy backyard into a dancefloor. Heck there was nightclub-esque lighting yo! And some people brought booze. It was a shame we went home early (although it was pretty late already). I think it went on till sunrise lol.

Man, I felt right at home.

Right at home, bitches. :)

What if we hold it in dog-eating place... Somebody gotta make it happen right?. Hmm.

Monday, May 26, 2014

A Gig(?) At the Land of the Gods

So basicaly I didn't realize this until the end of the event lol

It was at my bestfriend's wedding on the 15th, and it was held far away from dog-eating place. It was in BALI BRAAAAAH!!
She asked me to bring guitar on the wedding reception because one of the groom's family will be presenting a song bit he didn't have an acoustic guitar. Well our youth leader's guitar was with me at that moment so I brought it along with me. Kekkekek

First of all, bringing guitar while traveling is a real pain in the ass. Urgh. The aircraft didn't have special storage for that kind of thing, and the stewardess was using real bitchy tone when I asked politely if they have. Psh. Bitch.

I ended up putting it in the cabin baggage compartment along with everybody else's heavy ass baggages. I was so worried that the neck will snap into pieces.. Actually I could just use a hard case right? Well heck no. Hardcases are 50x heavier than the guitar.

So anyway, when I got there my bestfriend asked me to present a song too for when everybody was having their desserts.. so yeah..

I sang Stickwitu by The Pussycat Dolls, and then for some reason, almost everyone thought that I wrote that song while I DID say that I will be singing Stickwitu by The Pussycat Dolls before I started singing. So I had a couple of awkward moments when the older fellas started saying things like "what a lovely song! Will you keep writing?" Ok........

Boy I was rusty and shakey lol

After I sang I felt unsatisfied cuz I thought I could do better.. But yeah.. and then it crossed my mind that I was singing in some place other than Historical City, or even dog-eating place. I SANG IN BALI BRAAAAAH!!

LOL

Sorry man.. I know this isn't like singing on the big stage with people paying to see me perform but the point is, I performed in a new place. HAHA.
Thas was actually my first time playing in a province other than where I came from (in this country) and people actually enjoyed it so..  kekekeke it felt awesome :p

Too bad I don't have a pic of me during the performance but it was in my besties' wedding vid. So yeah.. plus I got the bouquet from the bride's bouquet tossing game HAHAH. So.. It's time to proof whether the urban legend is legit or not.

See ya!

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Teen-hit?

There was this youth choir at our district, the members are from different churches including ours. On the 28th last month they held their first concert, and our youth was invited as one of the line-up. We performed acoustic, 2 christian songs and guess what,I got to sing my own song. Kekekekek. I composed this song when I was in college, and told the Rubberfellas about it but we graduated so we didn't do anything about it hehe.

Well people here don't speak english. So I was 100% sure they were bored cuz they don't understand a thing I was singing. Besides, they came for the choir concert not for us right? HAHA

A number of 14 year olds from my church came and watched cuz they had free tix, and then after the show, they came up to me and said "Hey who's the original singer? WHAT?! That was YOUR song? OMG your song is niiiiiiccceee!!! *gigglegiggle* Teach us! Teach us the song! Your accent! What'S the song about? Tell us!tell us!" etc etc.

Hoookay.

Even until last week when we had our youth service, they were all like "let's sing your song as the closing song"

Hoookay.

I felt awkward but at the same time I was so glad that people -teens- like my song :D
I didn't expect it to be that way but then this was a nice surprise.

Aaaanyway, I have a lesson.
CHANGE YOUR BATTERIES THE NIGHT BEFORE THE SHOW. Seriously. Before the gig, we were doing the soundcheck and realized that the battery for the 2 guitars were low. So we went out to buy new ones. Easy fix. NO. Because the battery socket STUCKED and we couldn't open it no matter how hard we tried. We were panicking because the show was about to start and we'll be performing first!!! In the end we managed to open it in time (with violence tho). But then we were all sweaty because the gig venue has no AC nor a fan. So our hairs were greasy,our clothes wet, my makeup melted (=.=)". Nevermind... It went well kekeke :D

Monday, April 28, 2014

A rendezvous with my first love..

I.am.a.happy.girl.

Haha

Last night I got a gig playing bass. Yeah baby. BASS. I haven't been playing for quite a while now and I miss playing bass for a gig ><

As expected, MAH FINGERS HURRRRTTT!!!! It was painful. But painful good kekeke.. It reminds me how good the feeling was back then and even though it was just a regular youth service and set to have a cafe vibe with only acoustic guitar; bass; and cajon; I played like a possessed bitch hahahaha I couldn't care less!! Because seriously, last year I only played bass 1 or 2 times and it's not even a gig!! Only some random jamming!! That's why I kinda went overboard last night hahaha

Oh btw I have ANOTHER bass playing gig tonight!! THANK YOU LORD JESUS! I am really really really really thankful for this :D

I hope that my friend and I will do great tonight especially since some stranger will join us to play the cajon and He didn't come for practice the other day.. Hmm.

Last night I didn't use my baby to play :( I didn't change the battery and I desperately need to re-string so I ended up using the church's bass.. Haih. Nevermind.. Tonight I'll be using mine. I hope it still works and sounds well cuz I haven't been using it for so long T.T

p.s. I'm sorry baby...

Thursday, April 17, 2014

Now this is personal.

I have been abandoning this blog since like,forever. In case you're wondering, I have no intention to stop blogging. Kekeke. It's just that I ran out fire.

Ok maybe this is the time for updates. To tell you the truth, I feel kind of embarrased by how things turned out. There were a lot of stuff going on in my life -musically- and to be honest, I don't want to post it here because this blog will be so gloomy.

So actually I was filled with disappointment. I am unsatisfied with things and I really really want to give up. I have been constantly disappointed with my fellow bandmates. It was extremely uninspiring and every gig is just so blah. We have been getting gigs from neighboring churches, and lack of preparation makes it suck. I became very reluctant to practice with them. Even though I still go in the end. I know that this is bad and I have to get rid of my reluctance, suck it up, and practice diligently.

You see, my bandmates and I don't have the same passion. They LIKE music and they KNOW how to play but then that's it. If there's a gig, we'll practice and play but no one cared enough to make our band better, to step up our game or try differrent things, or do research. They were bothered about how unskillful we are, but they did effing nothing about it!!!!! I tried to write chords down for them but bitch please there's no way in hell I'm gonna spoonfeed them for the rest of my gig life!!!

Basically I am mad at everyone including myself because I have no idea what to do and I want out of the band completely. But then this is a responsibility. Not to man, but to God. We were formed to serve anyway.. So I gotta continue. That's one of the reason why I want to continue this blog. I want to post all those struggles and experiences no matter how redundant. Hopefully this blog will be a benchmark on how we're doing, plus I will post reviews and first impressions on stuff I currently listening to.

So.. yeah. This is me trying not to give up.

See ya!

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

At church on a satnite. Like a good kid. lol


Heyhey! I just realized that my last post was on the 4th of July and that day I changed the whole blog layout to this red & blue themed layout! It assure you, it was unintentional lol. I just happen to like how it looks.

Actually I planned to write a review but then I had a gig last Saturday!! Once again, it's a church thingy but the event was held at the other church. We got our old guitarist back, and he was behaving better that day and this was his first gig with us this year after what happened last time (=.=)..



Well normally if we play on this kind of gig, we'll have practice probably the day before, and then a couple of hours before the event itself. Most of the songs were common, so we didn't really need extensive practice. But this time it was different. We had a couple of practice before the event and even the songs were fixed way before the event. This was because we didn't know the WL (Worship Leader) and most of the singers are newbies so they were still unsure when to come in etc etc. 

The Worship Leader was interesting. Sometimes he went overboard. It's pretty difficult to explain here. You see, he dragged the song for too long. And that wasn't because he was singing the song over and over again. On certain occasion where there is room for "improvisation", he went for it and then lingered. PLUS sometimes he went off key. Thank goodness he didn't do it as much during the event. We the musicians tried to tone down the music so that He'll eventually get the signal and then end his adlibs. But then most of the time he kept going on and on. Nobody was able to tell him off because this is kind of a sensitive issue but then everybody noticed it and was pretty much against it. The guys hated him lol. So the only way to sorta tell him off is by reducing the music. The lesson I've learned is that Worship Leaders should have self control as well. Even though the music and the atmosphere was 'high', you gotta know when to stop. You don't want people to be staring at you as if this is a show right? During practice, that happened a lot. 

Second, Worship Leaders gotta be clear about the chronological order of events. If you can't remember, then write it down and carry it with you! This fella was pretty clueless, and he skipped a song, and a solo. Well maybe because he was nervous.

Third, please WLs. Don't preach too much. There will be a sermon afterward so you don't really need to. 

From the musicians' side, I kinda followed what we practiced back then in SBC. In SBC we have song sheets with chords in it and the sequence of the song. I printed the same thing and boy did it come in handy :) I do think that it is a must for church musicians to have song sheets with 'em chords and sequences in it. We played neatly, and the basslines managed to be blended in nicely. It sounded more balanced :D

I was so stupid that I didn't do this since back then. If I did, then I wouldn't be as frustrated because everybody was playing their own thing and although the chord was right, it didn't blend in nicely. Not anymore B)

From the sound corner, we have difficulties at first because initially we were planning to use only amps until this guy came with the full PA. BUT his system is  normally used for keyboard style playing not for bands. But then the uncle was pretty nice and the sound went pretty good. A huge plus is that I can hear myself AND the band (most important thing for me). Also, unlike during certain occasion, this time I was able to control the volume by myself. Now I know why. When the sound man told me to put it to the max, I did what he said and then I ended up unable to adjust accordingly. All I can go was go quiet. I can't go louder because I was maxed out!! This time, I adjust my volume to 12 o'clock, and then we all played the loudest song so that the sound man will adjust my volume accordingly. For other songs, I will still have the freedom to go quiet or louder. I do think that this can be applied to any instrument. 

I noticed that at dog eating place, most of the rented sound system during the event are normally used for keyboard style music. So if they are faced with a band, normally the keyboard will go through the PA, and then the rest will be using amps. I prefer everybody to go through the PA though. I think it'll sound better that way.

Alright I think that's that.Have a nice afternoon! ;)





Thursday, July 4, 2013

play ketchup

Heylou wazzup blogosphere! Omg I almost forgot that I actually have a blog!! :P

Seriously I am pretty much let down by the whole situation that has been going on for almost 2 years now.. I am STILL don't like the environment I am at, and  I am THIS close to losing my identity (as a musician) although the  passion never goes away, it never burned  out.

Ok. Sorry. I didn't mean to rant, actually, but I figured I gotta give some explanation to y'all out there.

You know, I lost ALL my music. About 10,000 songs  on my external hard drive, GONE. But then I have been recollecting  'em mp3s, and now I kinda go a little random. Listening to bands with weird names that I have never seen on TV, but also some known bands. So I borrowed my friend's hdd and I copied stuff. Weird stuff. But then I found  a couple of gems! And then I remember this blog hahaha. I haven't been reviewing bands for a long time!! This was actually the initial purpose of this blog kekeke.

So as I said, there are a number of bands I have been listening to and I LOVE THEM. Seriously awesome arrangement and a couple of pieces blew my mind :D

BUT I won't be writing about 'em now because office hour is coming to an end and since I am using their internet connection, I might as well just write 'em tomorrow HAHAH I have nothing better to do at le office :p

Ta-tah for now ;)