Now this is personal.

I have been abandoning this blog since like,forever. In case you're wondering, I have no intention to stop blogging. Kekeke. It's just that I ran out fire.

Ok maybe this is the time for updates. To tell you the truth, I feel kind of embarrased by how things turned out. There were a lot of stuff going on in my life -musically- and to be honest, I don't want to post it here because this blog will be so gloomy.

So actually I was filled with disappointment. I am unsatisfied with things and I really really want to give up. I have been constantly disappointed with my fellow bandmates. It was extremely uninspiring and every gig is just so blah. We have been getting gigs from neighboring churches, and lack of preparation makes it suck. I became very reluctant to practice with them. Even though I still go in the end. I know that this is bad and I have to get rid of my reluctance, suck it up, and practice diligently.

You see, my bandmates and I don't have the same passion. They LIKE music and they KNOW how to play but then that's it. If there's a gig, we'll practice and play but no one cared enough to make our band better, to step up our game or try differrent things, or do research. They were bothered about how unskillful we are, but they did effing nothing about it!!!!! I tried to write chords down for them but bitch please there's no way in hell I'm gonna spoonfeed them for the rest of my gig life!!!

Basically I am mad at everyone including myself because I have no idea what to do and I want out of the band completely. But then this is a responsibility. Not to man, but to God. We were formed to serve anyway.. So I gotta continue. That's one of the reason why I want to continue this blog. I want to post all those struggles and experiences no matter how redundant. Hopefully this blog will be a benchmark on how we're doing, plus I will post reviews and first impressions on stuff I currently listening to.

So.. yeah. This is me trying not to give up.

See ya!